Sobs=.=''

Today whn i was packing my bag for the Netball Trip I realised that i dun have my swimwear...
I searched and searched until i cant take it so i called my Father to buy me a "one piece" swimwear bt he sound soo angry...

Thn my Stepsister said" i thought ur sister have 1?" thn i told her i tried it alrdy bt bt bt it was too revealing for me...
Thn i started sobbing as her words pierce through my heart...
I straight away went in to the rm and cried..
My grandmother dun understand eng and indo so sometimes her misinterpretion (dun mind my Spelling) so thn she came to me n say "how can u feel that its ugly..u nvr even try.."(in hokkien) The more i felt hurt...

Cries...=(

Today, my Mother and my sisters went to Indonesia...
As i mention earlier at the previous post I cried rite...
Actually today i woke up very early bt b'cos i dun really wan to face my mother as the moment i see her i will feel lyk crying..
I wanted to avoid meeting her bt in the end i went out and i saw my mother at the door..
She was hugging my grandmother to say gd bye so eventually tears rolled down my cheeks...
I could feel lyk im losing a mother..
I really cant hold my tears bac anymore i ran to the bathrm and cried out all my tears loudly..
U dun wan to noe how it feels lyk...
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

Untill now im still sad abt it...
I really dunno how to express my feeliings...
Its like I jus wan to be with thm even if im not going anywhere...
The main thing is whn they are with me i dun treasure thm bt whn they are gone i feel the pain..
Can u imagine if im there now? i will be playing and enjoying myself...
I really wish there is no netball camp and SLC camp...
If im given a choice i would go to indonesia...
Im jus afraid the 1st 7 members would blame me if i dun go as Mr Njoo said if 1 person nvr go frm ur team the whole team cant go and i noe almost ALL the first 7 would blame me(no offence to junior 1st 7)
my hearts in pain...
CAN SOMEONE SAVE ME!!!!

Hey! im bac!

hey! long time no see=P...
Actually i finished my exams long time ago..
I achieve quite a gd results(I think)...
Overall im 11th in class out of 37 ppl and im 60th in the whole level out of 213...
Nvm lets not talk abt that anymore..

Yesterday was the starting of our June Holidays..
Let me tell u, this June hols Im lyk sooo Busy...
Firstly, I have lyk this Student leaderz Day camp frm lyk 7am-6pm++ on 1st of june & 2nd thn on 3rd of june I have discipline conference with the leaders at TKSS thn i have netball camp frm 8th-10th of june THN im going to Indonesia frm 11th-25th of june and i still have to meet Mr Zack on 26th of june and i oso have to do a lot of things on 29th&30th june...IM GOING CRAZY!
My head now is filled with ALOT of things..I still have hw for eng..
I have to do frm pg 1-160 of the EL Grammer book thingy...
I still have to do the asknlearn quizzes...

Tmr my Sisters & my mother are going to indonesia in the morning and Im dunno whether i shld go to the airport or not cos im afraid i will cry..
I've been crying in the bathroom jus now.
I have a feeling i cant live without my mother and my sisters...
Shld i go?

3 Posts a day?? im dying!

15.05.09(Friday) Today=15.05.09
Today I had my Science examination it was in a way hard but doable...
Finally whn the bell rings at 9.30am... Ding DOng Ding Dong! YAY!!!! no more exams le!
After that Mr Ashiq went through our English Paper...
So Happy no MT lessons for 3 days!!
After that We had our IT lessons...YAY! I love IT Lessons..
1.Got Air Con(somemore after recess)
2.Teacher DAMN kind
3.Can realax
We were suppose to blog but i have a comp at home so i can do the assignment at home=)
So i dun noe who started this..it was to search our frens name on google..it was so disgusting(try searching for it)
Examples of it are Dewi,Depi & Tiffany...
There are a lot more but most of thm are girls..
After IT was Maths..we went through out Mahs Paper 1 booklet A and i got 20/20 Yay Full marks bt cant be so arrogant..
im afraid i will fail for Paper 2??how??
Anyway Im sooo tired catch u up on the next post Muahz!

Hey!

14.05.09(Thursday)(i did not blog on this day) Today=14.05.9
Today , We had our MT exam but on that day i was allowed to go home early as i had Headache and Fever...
The exam was very very easy but not confirm that can get very good results as the total depends on my oral,paper,compo.LC..
I went home at 10am ...
My head was still very giddy so when i reached home i straight away "collapsed" on the sofa..
I slept frm abt 10 to like 12...i finally realised how does it feel being at home whn i am in school frm Mon-Fri frm 6am-1pm (at least)
Whn my frens are having maths getting scolded im at home sleeping hehe..
I had my lunch and ate my medicine...
I had to eat 3 types of medicine!!
-2 For Fever
-1 For Headache
-2 For my throat (as it was hurting badly)
After that i had a rest at studied for my Science as tmr was our Science Exam..
Anyway if i say tmr means the next day after 14.05.09

Worst day of my life!

Today was the worst day of my life...
Today was my maths sa1 exam...
Early in the morning i felt that my throat was really pain...
I felt feverish and i felt very giddy...
i took my temperature and it was 38.4!!
Before i leave my house i took my temperature agn it was such a relief that it was only 37.8...
I was like going to die my face was pale..
I reach school and a lot of my frens ask me "Depi are u ok?"
I wanted to tell thm that im having fever and headache bt thn i cant even talk my throat was really very pain..
I walked up to class and thn our maths exam started..
it was first the paper 1 which consists of booklet A and B...
I felt really giddy and i was like burning bt thn i had to continue cos this exam is really really important cos there wont be any make up test at all...
I told myself to stay strong and finally i finished..
I had like 5-10 min left so i had a rest cos i really cant take it anymore..
After that at 9am we had our recess till 9.25am..
I had some and we had to line up at the parade square bt thn our class(5o) had to line up in the sun..I felt even more giddy...
our Paper 2 was 1hr 40 min it was frm 9.50am-11.30am...
The paper was soooo hard i skipped a few qns first thn after that i went back to the qns that i have not completed...I think im going to get 38/40 for paper 1 and 38/60 for paper 2(i calculated) so i will get 76/100 for total and im like sooo far frm my target...my target was 90/100 bt too bad i dun think i can even get 80/100...
ater the exams i wanted to go home as i was very warm...bt i thought of it if i go home nobody would bring me home...so no use..im so scared that i might faint or something so i wait till 12.30 thn i went home...Same thing today i went home with Ariqah..before going home i took my temperature agn and guess wat it was 38.5 agn...
I felt very very very warm and my head was hurting i actually wanted to call daddy to come and fetch me home but he went to work...
Once i reach home,i straight away tell my grandmother abt it and she gave me panadol and i slept for a few hours...i was sobbing away as i do not want swine flu or watever...
Swine flu may cos me to die and my netball "career" is gone and im unable to go KL and Indonesia....
NOw im feeling better and so happy that my temp. drop...it is 37.7 now! yay!
Today i may have another blog so stay tune!

Luckily today i have time to blog=}
Today as usual after school i walk back home bt this time round i walk home with Ariqah...
Once i reach home i wash my leg and hand and had my lunch...
i played two to three hours of computer and went to have a bath...
After that,i started revising for my maths...I went through MY WHOLE dark blue & light blue file...(A lot of WS u noe!)
After that at around 8.45pm i had my dinner.
and...now im writing this blog..Maybe after this i will continue revising my science agn thn i will go to bed at 9.15pm-9.30pm..see u tmr!

Stress!!!

Today,i woke up at 8.30am and had my breakfast...
After that i started doing my hw...
I was trying to release my stress by surfing the net bt....
no use i was still thinking abt stress...

Anyways nothing more to talk abt today...
I feel like sleeping le...
See u tmr..
er...maybe not i will be preparing for exams..
erm...maybe after exams bye!