Cries...=(

Today, my Mother and my sisters went to Indonesia...
As i mention earlier at the previous post I cried rite...
Actually today i woke up very early bt b'cos i dun really wan to face my mother as the moment i see her i will feel lyk crying..
I wanted to avoid meeting her bt in the end i went out and i saw my mother at the door..
She was hugging my grandmother to say gd bye so eventually tears rolled down my cheeks...
I could feel lyk im losing a mother..
I really cant hold my tears bac anymore i ran to the bathrm and cried out all my tears loudly..
U dun wan to noe how it feels lyk...
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

Untill now im still sad abt it...
I really dunno how to express my feeliings...
Its like I jus wan to be with thm even if im not going anywhere...
The main thing is whn they are with me i dun treasure thm bt whn they are gone i feel the pain..
Can u imagine if im there now? i will be playing and enjoying myself...
I really wish there is no netball camp and SLC camp...
If im given a choice i would go to indonesia...
Im jus afraid the 1st 7 members would blame me if i dun go as Mr Njoo said if 1 person nvr go frm ur team the whole team cant go and i noe almost ALL the first 7 would blame me(no offence to junior 1st 7)
my hearts in pain...
CAN SOMEONE SAVE ME!!!!